Skyway Avenue

So the time has come again..Christmas lights, trees, decorations, cookies, family, gifts, laughter and joy. I love it! We just got our tree on Saturday and I can`t wait till we decorate it. The time is flying by I can`t believe thanksgiving has past and its already December!! I am getting excited for all my friends to come home from school and all the fun that is yet to come..In just a meir seven days I will be turning 21...wow! I never thought I would be saying that..but the time has come for sure..I just got use to saying 20. haha I finished my first term at school and I am moving on up. This next term brings new and exciting things! Its going to be fast paced and tons of fun. I can`t wait!! I am sad the first term is over, we had so much fun and I would be happy if I got to stay with chef white. But there is more to learn and more chef`s to learn from so here I go..only sixteen weeks left!!! Let the games begin..

Work is not as busy..I was hoping for some fun catering due to the holiday season but nah.. though breakfast with Santa is on Saturday...This is my excited face.. : l lol I`m sure it will just be loads of fun!!!

I`m sure there will be more to say later..I`ll try and do my best to keep you posted!!

The Test

I feel like time is flying by..

I`ve already been in school for over a month. It feels like I started yesterday. I love it though. Some days are better than others but that's how it is with all things. I`ve made lots of new friends and i`m learning some pretty cool things. I miss working my job though. I loved what I did and the responsibility. It hasn`t all gone away but since I started school everything seems to be a mess. I hate closing!! Buts its the only thing I can do so I can get my hours in. Alex has been helpful when he can but shoot.

So my car is deciding it doesn`t like me anymore. Its ready to be done but I need it to last until April when I can buy a new one..So we`ll see what happens. Keep your fingers crossed. Or just make a donation to the buying KT a new car fund :]

I have been thinking a lot about my life after school and where I want to be. I`ve really been thinking seriously about California. What could be better ya know? Its a pretty good deal plus I don't have to stay if I don`t like it. I can come home after twelve weeks, but at least i`ll be trying something new. I am in need of a great adventure and I think this could be it.

It starts to hurt after awhile...

What is it that they see..

What did I ever do?

All I wanted was to be friends

I never wanted to feel this way

You hurt my feelings..

I`m tired of lying

I`m tired of the hurt

Just forget it

It`s a waste of time

I don`t need you or anyone else

I am who I am..

Take it or leave it

Is this everything that you hoped for? Is this everything you've dreamed?

Stay in place

When there's so Many things to say

I want to help you now

How does it take

But I just don't

But I just don't

So please take my life And use it

I'm ready

Trying Something New,,

So I thought I would try something new, we`ll see how it goes. I have so much to say..not really sure if I want people to read it but I don't know. I`m so use to bottling crap up until I burst. I`ve already cried myself to sleep...whats next? I`m so lonely these days. I miss all of my friends and I miss how things use to be. I miss it when life made sense and when i knew what I wanted out of it. Now I`m just stuck in this place..I don`t really know where it is but I don`t like it. I feel lost and hopeless, I feel like there is no way out...i`m stuck..broken. I just want there to be a sign or something so I know i`m doing the right thing. I`m tired of failing and letting people down. It feels like that's all I ever do..I just want to make everyone proud. I want to prove to everyone that I can do it That I'm not just a joke. But every time I try something happens and i`m back at square one! I hate freaking square one!!!