It starts to hurt after awhile...

What is it that they see..

What did I ever do?

All I wanted was to be friends

I never wanted to feel this way

You hurt my feelings..

I`m tired of lying

I`m tired of the hurt

Just forget it

It`s a waste of time

I don`t need you or anyone else

I am who I am..

Take it or leave it

Is this everything that you hoped for? Is this everything you've dreamed?

Stay in place

When there's so Many things to say

I want to help you now

How does it take

But I just don't

But I just don't

So please take my life And use it

I'm ready

Trying Something New,,

So I thought I would try something new, we`ll see how it goes. I have so much to say..not really sure if I want people to read it but I don't know. I`m so use to bottling crap up until I burst. I`ve already cried myself to sleep...whats next? I`m so lonely these days. I miss all of my friends and I miss how things use to be. I miss it when life made sense and when i knew what I wanted out of it. Now I`m just stuck in this place..I don`t really know where it is but I don`t like it. I feel lost and hopeless, I feel like there is no way out...i`m stuck..broken. I just want there to be a sign or something so I know i`m doing the right thing. I`m tired of failing and letting people down. It feels like that's all I ever do..I just want to make everyone proud. I want to prove to everyone that I can do it That I'm not just a joke. But every time I try something happens and i`m back at square one! I hate freaking square one!!!